Stalker

Before I start this post I must first say that I know about stalking. I am a self proclaimed creep. I am a Facebook stalker a blog stalker and on rare occasions if I'm really bored a myspace stalker. I don't really ever stalk with a purpose I just look at all the people I went to high school with or knew..or know from somewhere. HOWEVER...

I'm pretty convinced Troy and I have a stalker. Like an actual super creepy stalker. And I think that stalker comes in the form of my ex-boyfriend. Here's why...

Let's first give back ground. The stalker we will call X. X and I dated for a year and half. We talked very seriously about getting married. Looked at rings. Had a date (a very far off in the distance date) I started looking at venues...blah blah blah. Then I went WTF? what am I doing? I can't marry this guy. We are completely incompatible. our relationship was bad. We weren't always the nicest people to each other. We were drama. and that's all I will say. so i broke up with him in November of 2007. Needless to say he didn't take it very well. He kept finding ways to weasel in to my life. And my guilty conscious let him for a while.

In march of 2008 I met troy and basically became smitten for life. Yet that darn X kept trying to weasel back in. Like one time he got in a car accident. He calls me bawling (he cried a lot) saying there was no one else to get him. What was I supposed to do? I have a heart. Only to find out later he just wanted to see me. Then in June shortly after the car accident incident. I told him I wanted him out of my life forever. I wanted Troy and I to be serious and in order for that to happen he had to be gone. He was cool about it. I finally thought he was gone....

Then in October after 4 months of no communication he randomly shows up at my house just to say hi.

A few weeks after that he starts calling. ALL THE TIME. I never answer. One day I left my phone at home and I had 17 missed calls from him. 17! not to mention 5 text messages and 2 from his sister asking me to call him. I get on my email and i have 3 emails from him as well! So I agreed to talk to him to get him to stop calling, emailing, texting, etc...before he made another house visit. I told him I would only talk to him over MSN I didn't want to talk over the phone or in person. So we talk and he wants to be friends again. I say no. Troy and I started talking marriage. And a friendship between X and myself wouldn't be right. He then proceeds to call me every name in the book and signs off MSN.

some time after the MSN incident he starts texting me gross things. I ignore him. He goes away.

a month or 2 after that he starts texting me again saying he knows I have some of his stuff and wants it back and he'll come get it if he has to and is just plain rude. I know what he's talking about so I immediately take it to his grandma's house who lives a few blocks from me. Text him and say. "it's at your grandmas." He then proceeds to say all of these rude things to me about me cheating on him blah blah blah. I keep ignoring him until he says something that just sends me over the top and I write back (i still remember it exactly) "Stop acting like you are so innocent you cheated on me too. Get over yourself. Leave me alone." He got the reaction he wanted...he keeps texting me. I ignore him again. Troy finally gets off work and I show him the texts. So now troy gets involved and texts him to please leave me alone. more texting happens and suddenly X is threatening Troy and saying that he has been taking steroids and now has 36in biceps...I don't know about you guys but 36 inches is bigger than around my waist. SEE HOW CRAZY HE IS? When i broke up with him he was 6'5" and 180lbs...no way in hell his arms are/were ever/will ever be that big.

a month after that X runs in to Michelle's ex boyfriend Ben. Ben gives X Michelle number and he starts texting her asking why am I getting married. That was around April ish maybe?

I hadn't heard from him forever and I thought maybe he was finally done. We'd been broken up for 21 months. As recently as AUGUST....I get a phone call from a number I don't recognize. With a weird area code. I answer. it's X calling to apologize about being a douche bag. Saying he's happy for me. a bunch of BS if you ask me. He didn't sound sincere in his apology at all. Telling me to call him any time. (yeah right). I finally think maybe he is done. UNTIL...

yesterday.

a few days ago Troy gets a friend request on facebook from an Adam West. This Adam doesn't have a picture. Troy thinking "well maybe I do know him or maybe Leslie knows him" so he adds him back. A few days later this Adam person writes a comment on one of Troy's pictures. That just happens to be a picture of the 2 of us. The comment is rude. It is about me. And said things that a stranger would not know. Troy showed me the comment and then we deleted it. My guess...it's X. I would not put it passed him to make a fake facebook just so he could keep tabs on us. I'm sure there is a possibility that it could just be some weird coincidence. But I just get this weird feeling it is not. We wrote him a message back joking about his rude comment (like troy and this Adam west were old friends) and then wrote "how is California?" Which is where X is apparently currently living according to his surprise phone call last month.

I will keep you updated on the stalker thing.

meh

So I think I might die of exhaustion. I'm so sick of studying for stupid stupid tests! I have 2 tests tomorrow. and a paper due on Friday. BLEH. I need sleep and I need a shower. Neither of which I really want to do. Maybe I'm just a completely gross person but I really hate showering. It's so annoying why can't I be clean and smell good all the time?

I wish troy would get back from basketball already...i miss him.
total amount of time I've seen him today: about 45 minutes. Around 20 minutes this morning before I left for school at 6:50am. And again for about 25 minutes between the time he got home and left for basketball. 45 minutes in the past 15 hours? that is sad. And we'll probably go to bed in about an hour. So I'll see him for about 2 hours in a 24 hour day...lame. I sure do like him :)

Internet

Yay I have followers! go sarah and shelly! and just for the record mallory and lisa...I never told anyone because...I can't remember why. Mostly because I think I got lazy and forgot. But Shelly knew I had a blog. So...blame shelly for not informing you or something like that. I don't know how to do anything cool with my blog....like those lists to the right side of all the people you "read" and are your "friends" to show how "popular" you are. So someone tell me how to do those. That would be great.

GREAT NEWS

Troy and I finally got the internet. So now i can blog ALL the time. yay! be stoked. because i have lots of stuff to say...(not really. if there is a way to show sarcasm on a blog...you should also tell me how to do so)

So not that anyone knows who Max is other than the little boy I do therapy with...He was so great today. I swear I fall more in love with that kid every day. I accidently gave him my cold. sad. and he was all sniffly and such but he was such a trooper and made me laugh. I've only worked with him for 2 months but already I can see the progress he has made. His language has gone WAY WAY up. He says my name now and asks for things and imitates me and I swear there are days when he's imitating me because he's making fun of something I said. His mom says that Steve (the main therapist) says that Max will be ready for pre-school come May. And then we get to take him to pre-school and be his aid. How fun would that be???

I wish I had something funny and clever to write...but I don't. And I can hear my neighbors...gross. That is my que to leave and turn up the tv really loud and watch Fighting. Oh...Channing Tatum take me away...

To do lists

So I've decided I suck at life. Ok maybe not. I mean I live and breath and everything. I just have way too much on my plate right now. I work 2 jobs, go to school full time and I am trying to get this position as a Research Assistant to this virtual reality experiment going on at school. Which who knows if I'll get because I can't ever seem to get a hold of the Professor and then she emails 5 days later saying I can meet today at 1pm and then I don't get the email until 1:30....It's annoying. But maybe I shouldnt do the whole RA thing I'm already stressed as it is. I got in to the nutrition online class I was wanting to get in to. HOLY CRAP. it requires way more work than I'm willing (ok wanting) to put in. I did finally submit my first assignment today though! 2 days before the deadline. Thats not quite procrastinating right? Even though I have known about it for 2 weeks....

Troy and I are finally getting internet AND cable. WOOHOO! reality tv (but mostly GREY'S ANATOMY) HERE I COME!

what was i talking about again? right. to do lists. I have too many things to do.

1. nutrition research assignment
2. get RA job
3. work with max
4. work at the rec center
5. read 11 pages of spanish
6. read 3 chapters of nutrition
7. do nutrition study guides
8. go to costco
9. cognitive psych discussion
10. watch the office
11. blog (check!)
12. read 2 chapters about the brain for drugs and behavior
    

Alright thats only 12 things but all that reading sucks. it's going to take me HOURS.

and now i can't figure out what is wrong with my font....drat. and last but not least....figure out how to work this darn blog.

13 things. ugh.

Hobbies

I've been wanting a hobby for a long time. I mean I HAVE HOBBIES. But none of which I think of as hobbies that people find acceptable as an answer to when someone asks "What are your hobbies?" Like I don't think I love reality television is an acceptable hobby. There is shopping but that's so....cliche. I like to sing. No i love to sing. But then when I tell people this they think that I'm like a superb singer (which i'm ok but not superb) ask me to join ward choir (which I'm not interested in) or have even asked me to sing for them (which I just will not do). Singing in front of people is like one of my greatest fears. I hate it. i get all sweaty and my voice shakes like crazy. I could say blogging. Then people might ask what my blog is...and find out I'm not funny and have horrible grammar. Or that I really don't blog often enough to call it a hobby.

I've tried cooking. Which I enjoy but I don't think I enjoy it enough to call it a hobby. I really like to read but then people ask me what I've read and I haven't read anything of noteworthy-ness. I don't read the classics. I find them boring. I tried to read Oliver Twist once i made it to like page 10. I've seen the movies Sense and Sensibility and Pride and Prejudice. Both of which I thought were horribly dull. I suppose it could be the acting...or the director who unfortunately made them dull but they've already been ruined. I've read Harry Potter and Twilight...but even people who don't like to read have read those. I just read weird books from the library with titles that intrigue me. I find myself reading books that have now become movies. I like to read but I never know what to read. So I figure if it's good enough to be a movie it's probably a good read. I'm currently reading a book titled "The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society" (courtesy of my book worm mom) It's pretty great. It's about WWII one of my absolute favorite topics.

I've stumbled upon a hobby that I think I might enjoy and I think is an acceptable hobby. Beading. I know it sounds lame but I want to make jewelry. I enjoy using the right side of my brain (or is it the left?) well let's just say the creative side of my brain. At Troy's family reunion his aunt brought a long the biggest collection of beads i have ever seen. And she let everyone make a bracelet. I loved it! And everyone gave me all of these compliments saying "Wow, Leslie you are so creative!" "That is so cute!" "I love those color combinations!" "You should think of making jewelry!" His aunt even let me make 2 bracelets! and I love them both. And I started to really consider it. In fact it's been on my mind for about a month now. I just haven't started because it costs quite a bit of money to get started. I keep looking at all of these awesome beads on ebay and other websites and thinking of all these ideas for necklaces, bracelets and earrings!

I really think it would be fun. But I should go. It's 3:45pm and I've done nothing with my life today.

summer so far.

Troy and I have been married for almost 3 whole months! I've said it a hundred times before but i loooove marriage! Actually I think I just love being married to troy. He's great. I think we've both got these crazy personalities that just match. we always burst out into random dancing and just do weird things. We're going camping this weekend. I'm sorta excited. I'm afraid it's going to be like last year and I'm going to freeze to death. At least this year troy and I get to share a tent :) unlike last year when I had to sleep in the trailor with his parents. School starts soon and I can't find a last class. I need to email a teacher and ask if it's alright to join an already filled to capacity class...i'm praying she says yes. or else i don't know what to do with the rest of my classes. I can't change my schedule anymore because of work. so it has to be an online class. and the two online classes that i wanted to take are full. LAME. I feel like I have a lame life right now. I don't have anything new to report. Except i got a new job working with a little boy who has autism. I do therapy with him 4 times a week. His name is Max and he is so adorable. He's almost 3. It's hard work and I don't really love it but its given me a lot of experience already and new view on autism and parenting and many other things. It's really cool to teach him new things and to finally see him get something and just watch him progress. He's incredibly smart. It's definitely a good job for right now. but not forever. All I've done this summer is work pretty much. I am definitely pasty white haven't seen much sun. So thats my life.

marriage: one month

So troy and i are FINALLY married! FINALLY. We've been married for just barely over a month now. It's been amazing! I love being married and getting to spend as much time as humanly possible with my new husband. He's already proved to be the worlds greatest husband. Our new apartment is cute. small. but cute :) And I definitely have my qualms with it or whatever that word is. But It's actually pretty nice for a first apartment. I don't know how a family of 4 (maybe it was 5) lived in there for 5 years before we did. I got mad at troy for something when we very first moved in and i had no where to hide. i ended up sitting on the bathtub for 5 minutes to try to be a lone and then he had to use the bathroom. It is a two bedroom house but as of the moment the "spare room" has turned in to "i have no idea where to put this" room. and it's filled with boxes and random stuff. Our bedroom closet is TINY. Here let me demonstrate this better...TINY. I basically crammed everything i could in there. We have 4 closets which sounds nice but 3 of them are TINY and one is pretty big but it's in our storage/laundry room and it's not really a closet. they pretty much just put bar to hang stuff on in their. Troy has the BIG closet and one little closet in the spare room. I have the closet in the bedroom but he gets the shelf on top and i have to share the other closet in the spare room with a bunch of boxes. Troy also took one of my chest of drawers. I currently have a big pile of clean folded clothes on top of my drawers because i have no where to put my clothes.

Our kitchen is nice and decent sized. Except we have no dishwasher...except for me. Ok that's a lie. Troy washes the dishes and i dry them. I hate washing. It grosses me out. And I try not to think about all of the bacteria growing on my dishes now because i think hand washing isn't very sanitary. I tried cooking chicken the first week we moved in...bad idea. All I kept thinking was salmonella (is that how you spell it?) Oh and our oven is interesting... it only sometimes warms up your food. It's a really old oven so if you need to cook anything above 400 degrees like say a frozen pizza...it's rather difficult. Any temperature above 400 is set to broil. Broiling a frozen pizza doesn't really work. So we've had to learn to adjust temperatures when cooking. And it' still not quite working. sometimes even when cook something at a typical 350 degrees we still have to add like 10 minutes to the time. Our microwave also doesn't work normally. You can't hit any of the preset buttons like "popcorn" the screen will start flashing "F 5" and the beeper starts howling like a crazy person and then turn off. But luckily for us we can manually type in our time. We've pretty much decided stove top cooking is our best option.

But it's a pretty nice place all in all. Except that we can hear up stairs perfectly. Like during the day when they're not home I can H-E-A-R their answering machine. Like actually hear what the person leaving a message is saying. Either they have the loudest answering machine on earth or the insulation sucks. I'm pretty sure it's the insulation. And I'm pretty sure they can hear us ALL the time. But that's not really my fault. They own the place. If they want to not be able to hear whats going on in our private time they.can.FIX.IT!.