what to do...

So Troy and I have been discussing what we're going to do after we graduate this summer. I will have my bachelors and Troy will finally have his associates! woohoo! We're debating what school he should go to. There are only 3 schools that offer his degree (which is now athletic training not pre physical therapy) Weber, Utah, SUU. Weber is pretty much out. And since I'm an SUU alumnus (thats where I got my associates) and a soon to be utah alumnus. I'm for either! I find we're both really leaning toward SUU. I loved SUU! So why did I leave you may wonder? I just knew my time there was over and I needed to be home. And I met my sweet husband 3 months later :)

Cedar would be fun. I think we both just think it would be an adventure to go down there where we won't really know anyone. Seeing now that most of my Cedar friends now live in the good ole SLC. Rachelle my old roommate/best friend in Cedar still lives there with her husband. So that would be cool. SUU is much less expensive then the U. Housing in Cedar is wayyy cheaper too. The job market however...pretty competitive. This leaves me (soon to be bread winner) a little uneasy. I just don't know. It really could go either way!

So what do you think...


OR...

Thinking out loud...

So I've been thinking a lot lately. I graduate in August (hopefully) and I'm super stoked about it. I'm also terrified because by the time I graduate I'll have been in school for 18 years and thats not counting pre-school! What do I do with myself that is not school? I know, I know... get a full time job but that's scary too! I've had a full time job before but this will be like a legit full time job and it freaks me out! Then I'll have to be the "bread winner" while I wait for Troy to finish school. That scares me the most. You see...me and full time jobs have never gotten along too well. I've had 2 full time jobs ever and I worked at each of them for about 4-5 months each before I felt I was going to rip my hair out and run out the door screaming. Granted one of them was a call center...that speaks for itself. I was one of their top agents however! Yes I will toot my own horn! I got perfect scores on all of my call tests. I got free lunch a lot :) But I quickly grew tired of "CreditRepair.com this is Leslie" and people yelling at me because they got themselves in to debt. So I quit.

Now in 6 months I have to buckle down and find me a full time job that I actually like. Forever, I've been thinking that I would work at a treatment center. Thats been my plan since I was 12. Now I'm 22 soon to be 23 and I'm questioning my "plan." As some of you know I've been interning at Lifeline, a residential treatment center for troubled teens. I've liked it a lot. However, I'm discovering how difficult a job like that might be. I am priviliged to sit in on group therapy and listen to the girls and boys talk about their struggles, addictions and abuses. I've just noticed a lot lately that I'm bringing some of "work" home with me. I don't do it intentionally but I can't help it. Some of the stories that these kids have are some of the hardest/horrifying/saddest stories I've ever heard. And I come home and just think about some of the stuff and I get completely disgusted about humanity. A lot of these kids have pasts I only thought existed in Lifetime movies. Some of the things that they've had to bear literally makes me sick to my stomach. I've just been wondering if I can really handle a job of this difficulty.

ALTHOUGH, I would just like to make mention of one thing. Today was the first time I got to talk to one of the kids about their problems. Typically all I do is observe but today Ariel let me give feedback during her one-on-one with one of the girls. I was sooooooo nervous I was literally shaking but I was trying to act professional. And I about wanted to FLY when the girl said "you're right." I wasn't even sure what I was going to say and words just kind of came out of my mouth. I literally felt like I made a difference today. And it's an awesome feeling. I'm hoping I get the opportunity to talk more to the kids and banish fears of everything a job like this entails. I'm just not sure I can hack it.

But today was awesome. This feeling is why I've always wanted to go in to a helping field.

please don't be jealous...

I got bored today waiting for Troy to come home and got on makemebabies.com

Here are our uh... attractive... children.

Our little boy who looks more like a girl...

And our little girl... who is apparently of another race.

Like I said... don't be jealous of our incredibly genetically blessed children. Maybe Troy and I should look into adoption in the future?

hair did

I got my hair did! I cut off 3 whole inches, added layers AND bangs! My good friend Heather came over to my house last night and snip snip! new hair!

Here is the last picture of me with my looong hair at Bekah's Homecoming

Here is all the hair I chopped off!

And here is my new hair! I know I'm posing for myself...don't judge me.

Thanks Heather! Totally Emma Stone worthy!

V-Day

Troy and I had an awesome Valentines Day! It wasn't really a typical valentines day because neither of us really take the holiday all that seriously. Troy knows that flowers are a big deal to me so he got me a really pretty bouquet of roses and lilies and he bought me a Jazz Hornacek throw back jersey. And in all honesty I completely forgot about Valentines until the day before (when troy gave me my gifts). So I felt like/am a horrible wife.

Saturday Troy and I went to his sisters house for a sleep over. It was her husbands birthday so we went to dinner with their family and ate at "Rib City" if anyone ever says "Hey lets go to Rib City!" I recommend you run away screaming. It was awful. I got the safest thing on the menu chicken fingers and in my first bite I found BONE. I have bone issues. I can't eat anything with bones in it...completely grosses me out. I picked at my dinner the rest of the night. Troy even tried my chicken fingers and didn't like them. That's saying a lot.

On Valentines Troy and I went to church with Kerstins family. Then when we all got home we watched Die Hard. After Die Hard we participated in Brian and Kerstins Valentines tradition...Wendy's! We had a romantic dinner with 4 screaming children...well ok 2 screaming children. My one year old neice Kennady tried to commit suicide climbing up a wall and jumping off. And my infamous nephew Jackson played the drums on my head with straws and started the most awesome duck dance. Which basically consisted of him flapping his arms and wiggling his butt while yelling "quack! quack!" While all of this was going on the grown-ups stole the childrens kids meal toy MAD LIBS (freakin love it!) while trying to come up with nouns, verbs and adjectives with child friendly sexual inuendos. HI-larious!

Oh and I almost forgot...Troy, Heath (troys brother), Steph (heaths wife), and Kerstin (troys sister) ran the Sweethearts 5k! I cheered.

Steph kickin' everyones trash!

Heath and Kerstin

My cute Husband!

if only I could afford a maid.

Can someone please teach me how to be neat and tidy all of the time? Please? I would definitely say that since I've been married I'm WAYYYY better at being clean then when I was un-married and living at home. I just hate that when I look around my house and see all of the things that are left out on counters or on the floor...they're mine. Any ideas? Tips? I need help.

inspiration

I have been inspired. I am always looking on the internet for furniture and other such things. Always looking for that one great deal, on that one perfect thing that I probably couldn't afford anyway even if I found it. Living in this apartment that I know I will not be spending the rest of my life in is slightly depressing. I like my little apartment don't get me wrong. It has served us quite well and is so super cheap and despite my seemingly endless complaints... it's pretty nice. I'm just ready to move on to bigger and better things. Unfortunately, bigger and better things just aren't quite in our budget as of the moment since we're both in school. So until then I look at furniture that we can't afford or possibly could afford but have absolutely no place or a need for. For example, a hutch, accent tables, a big huge sectional couch (one day! one day...). I REALLY want new furniture. We are in desperate need of a new couch. It's a hand me down from my mom that she bought when I was 9...yikes. Anywho... My inspiration.

I'm always looking at pottery barn and other equally expensive websites dreaming my life away. But I also don't really want to have a pottery barn house. I would like to have my house have some personality. I've started looking at KSL and Craigs List for stuff. And I stumbled upon this blog (on KSL of all places) and now I just want to buy really old cheap furniture and then refinish it! I probably won't do it myself...even though Troy knows how. Maybe I'll just have the people from The Frosted Gardner do it for me instead. One day. When I have my bigger and better house/town home/condo/anywhere other than this apartment. If only you could refinish couches....ok I'm sure you can. But I really just want a new one.

And in case you were wondering (because I know you were) Brand New was AMAZING. They sound AWESOME live. Super talented boys. Fantastic.