To put it lightly I have been a little ungrateful lately.
I don't have enough.
All of these words had become regular thoughts in my head.
These thoughts left me feeling irritable, grumpy, depressed and tired.
My prayers had become nothing more than a mindless recital.
That is, if I even decided to pray that day.
But I kept getting this nagging feeling.
you know the one...
that little voice, that whisper
just pray about it
Yesterday, I gave in. I prayed. I told God every selfish thought I had.
I gave him my worries, my concerns.
I told him how helpless I felt.
And then I went to work and didn't think anything of it for the rest of the day.
Today however, I noticed something different.
Today was no different than any other day,
But as I sat and watched Izzie play with her sidewalk chalk,
I realized how much I enjoy my life.
Honestly, I can't even describe to you the emotions that over came me as I played tic tac toe by myself and Izzie scribbled on the patio furniture.
I feel so blessed that I am able to stay home with Izzie the majority of the day.
I know that if I worked more it would take away a lot of financial stress,
But I love knowing that I'm the one who taught her what a cow says.
I taught her how to lick sauce off of her fingers
I taught her how to say "shoes".
I have been blessed with so much.
I have a fantastic husband, a beautiful healthy daughter, a roof over my head, clothes on my back and food in my cupboards.
What more do I need?