Tuesday, September 11, 2012


To put it lightly I have been a little ungrateful lately. 

Why me?
Why this?
Why that?
I don't have enough.
All of these words had become regular thoughts in my head.

These thoughts left me feeling irritable, grumpy, depressed and tired.

My prayers had become nothing more than a mindless recital.
That is, if I even decided to pray that day. 
But I kept getting this nagging feeling. 
you know the one...
that little voice, that whisper
just pray about it

Yesterday, I gave in. I prayed. I told God every selfish thought I had. 
I gave him my worries, my concerns.
I told him how helpless I felt.

And then I went to work and didn't think anything of it for the rest of the day.

Today however, I noticed something different.
Today was no different than any other day, 
But as I sat and watched Izzie play with her sidewalk chalk,
 I realized how much I enjoy my life. 
Honestly, I can't even describe to you the emotions that over came me as I played tic tac toe by myself and Izzie scribbled on the patio furniture. 

I feel so blessed that I am able to stay home with Izzie the majority of the day.
I know that if I worked more it would take away a lot of financial stress,
But I love knowing that I'm the one who taught her what a cow says.
I taught her how to lick sauce off of her fingers
I taught her how to say "shoes".

I have been blessed with so much.
I have a fantastic husband, a beautiful healthy daughter, a roof over my head, clothes on my back and food in my cupboards.

What more do I need?


  1. i have had very similar thoughts rumbling around in my head lately too. loved the post. glad you shared. we are blessed :) love you.

  2. beautiful. i'm ungrateful too. but just like that, you share your testimony and experience and you are that much better, beautiful humility. we are blessed. i forget to remind myself of that when i am so focused on things we want or need. i want to hear izzie say shoes. it's been too long.